MENTAL STATUS - SHAKING & BREAKING

I think THIS may be what broke the proverbial camel's back....SERIOUSLY?!?!?!?! YES - I woke up Wednesday morning covered in HIVES from HEAD TO TOES! hmmmmm....whatthehellhappened??? Apparently I am allergic to an ingredient in a decongestant... Theraflu - several shots of "the hooch" did me in - OFF to the dr. I go - NOT my usual dr - the one that you get when it's a non urgent emergency...Let's just say he had a stethoscope to my throat making sure i could breathe....hahahaha then I had to go HERE....It was Judy's priss pot grandaughter's 5th birthday party and I couldn't have her miss it!!

I LOVE my job and I HATE my job....i ADORE the girls i work with BUT i am constantly amazed at the outright RUDENESS of the customers....J'adore retail in all it's pink and green, polka dotted magic...and it's a combo of EVERYTHING i love - children's clothing, gifts, monogramming, stationery and invitations...I get to spend someone else's money (i've taken over MOST of the buying for the 2 stores and all of the marketing) and not work on weekends.... BUT THEN THERE'S THIS...."girl" she's probably in her 30s comes in - says we had a conversatiion about a bracelet - long story short..it wasn't me - we had called her (had it written down) - she said she didn't believe us - the ONLY time we could have done it was while her phone was switching over to international whilest they were in the BAHAMAS - let's just say this "HONEY - I don't make enough money to be called a LIAR...." we'll leave it at that and ps that she called back and said i was rude (she speaks the truth bc i won't tolerate that) which then brings me to THIS

We were out having cocktails at a friends' house the other night - of course the girls were gabbing...we were poor mouthing about the economy - WHO ISN'T?!?!?! The girls were spatting about how much they make - I giggled and said "oh lawdy - i am working retail and i shall not tell....One of the girls says "whatever - you'll always be fine" now for those of you not in the know - we own some properties...I WANTED to say (but i'm more polite until i get here) anyway you look at it - i have taken a $50K pay cut over the last year...YES i said it for ALL the world to hear!!! Which brings me to THIS

I want one of these...I've been living in an apartment for over a YEAR - there is stuff everywhere (CLUTTER KILLS ME) I have 4 (yes only 4) purses and i don't have anywhere to store them...my perfectly precious upstair neighbor got a perfectly precious pup who runs around ALL the time - and I can't say for sure but I could just SWEAR he drops weights on the floor and never sleeps...UGH - Annabelle has TOO many toys and i have crap under my bed!!! I want to walk around and have neighbors.. I have moved 15 minutes from where i used to live ~ work in the opposite direction and haven't really seen a soul... my commute to work is an hour (thank goodness i am working from home 2 days a week) but i miss my friends and my life it is a journey i am taking - i understand - i'm pretty good about knowing this is the valley but this week has got me to the point of no return...i want to toss everything non essential into a dumpster while screaming and cussing!!! which then brings me to THIS (maybe this purge will make it all better)

the grannie nannie (my mom - who is like having a nanny/wife/maid combo) the news hound says to me don't you EVER watch the news? I say " NO - all the scoop i need to know is whats trending now on my yahoo account" SERIOUSLY - could this week be ANY sadder/pathetic/worldgonetohellinahandbasket??? I LOVE college football and am just devastated by the Penn State "scandal" i wouldn't call it that - i would call it "serve the ENTIRE staff that was working on a silver platter to the police, parents and victims" now - the Oklahoma State coaches that got killed in a plane crash and the syracuse sex scandal... WHY OH WHY WOULD I WANT TO WATCH THE NEWS WHEN I CAN WATCH PEOPLE BUY HOUSES???? So needless to say I am eager for the weekend and in DESPERATE need of defouling!!!! If you see me on the street - you MAY want to run the other way.....HAHAHAHA - you know i'm not kidding!!! I know BUT it clearly states MIS adventure of the Bailey girls!!!

Living Out Loud

I have been wrestling lately with the concept - I have had a TON of changes over the past year and a half - closed my store, moved (into an apt WITH my mother), gotten a new job and a few others...when i began this journey - these were not places i saw myself EVER - it's hard to be GULP 38 and starting over - Annie has had some health set backs which has led to both of us having frustrations....

I feel like i have to "contain" myself because in this day and age everyone is watching and EVERYONE is judging....I am constantly thinking "should i say that?" "will it offend anyone?" "did someone get left out?" "did they get my tone"" "what if people get mad or don't approve?"

Can't i just put the friggin' picture up without worrying that someone is out of the loop or may take it the wrong way....or if my denaisms and profanity bother my CLOSEST 868+ friends on facebook....

Do I have to always be nice back when people aren't nice to me?

Do you really lose friends because A) they don't agree with what you say/did or
B) because they didn't bother to listen to the whole story?

Am i REALLY what I have and not who i am?

I guess when you have 850 friends to spare it's easy to just say f - it...it's the times

I (believe it or not) don't put the whole of my life on display - for several reasons - but the biggest one is - SOME OF IT'S MESSY - i have gotten to places that my heart is overjoyed with in ways that i'm NOT necessarily in like with...


Some of it I put in the "DENIAL PILE"

Annie is 7 and a half - legally blind, has epilepsy and my 4yo that could count to 20 in spanish, could recite my family tree, alphabet, shapes and was progressing is now not counting at all...can't distinguish shapes, count to 10 or say her abcs - is this permanent? Is it caused by epilipsy or medicine? and i've learned (the hard way - which is usually how i roll) that people don't want to know because it causes anxiety in their shiny lives....I know it does suck but mostly for ANNIE!!

So this is what I leave you with...if you are my FRIEND - I LOVE YOU to the MOON AND BACK - no matter what you have done, said or how you got where you are going...

AND PS ~ If you don't like it or you disagree you can A) not listen B) defriend me or C) talk about me to others but do NOT call, email, or write me telling me why you won't or don't because - I am taking my life back and LIVING OUT LOUD!!

Twick or Tweat!

Priss Pot decided she wanted to be a Princess for Halloween ~ she's a princess everyday ~ So here is Cinderella!!

Hope your night was filled with lots of treats!!!

Pumpkin Carving

I'm not sure why but Annie has been very into getting her picture taken lately - usually all I have to say is "you want me to take your picture to put on facebook?" I know it's sad but hey it works....So here we go to carve a pumpkin all dressed (with bow again I might add)!




Miss Priss all dressed up and ready for photo ops with the pumpkin! Where dat punkin and what we gonna do to it???




You would think I would take photo ops lessons from Annie and at least put some make up on - hahahaha..I figure after 5 years y'all have seen the good, the bad and yes, even the ugly!




Soooo....we thought Annie would like putting her hands in the pumpin and help pull out all the guts but after sticking her little hand in ~ she wanted NOTHING to do with it..hahaha




Here's the finished project! She loves her punkin and thinks he's bootiful!

Happy Fall Y'all!!

So we took Priss Pot to the Pumpkin Patch......she was SOOOO excited she even agreed to a bow in her hair ;) she had fallen at the lake so she's got a slight fat lip but it didn't slow her down one bit!



Wow - look at all the punkins - how will we ever choose???




We let her pick enough for everyone in her class...let me say A) there's only 5 kiddos in her class B) they are still on the floor in the living room - she just couldn't part with them



This is the one she picked for HERSELF...I really thought we'd have a fight to get her to leave but once she realized when we paid for them she could take them home and have them all to herself she was ready to roll!


We have been having a busy happy fall and hope y'all have too!!